Rough day

Yesterday was a rough day for me! I managed to do 1 of my p90x workouts but still am behind a day so I will have to double up or not take a rest day. I was very emotional yesterday. The reality of the deployment hit me. There was an article in the local newspaper about the meu and that this is the next to last of the deployment training. I started adding up the time I have left with Pat and well we have a lil over a month left which will be broke up in between training. 6-8 months alone is going to suck. Most my friends have moved away and I have been alone for all of this training. It's going to be a very lonely time for me. I was driving to the family dollar yesterday and I tried hard to hold back the tears. Not having much social interaction is getting to me. My phone never rang once yesterday and I have a feeling there is going to be a lot of days like this ahead. On the up side we did get some more school supplies and the kids enjoyed the venture out even if it was a short one. I haven't been sleeping well since Pat left and have been up at 6am both days so far which is not helping b/c I am tired early. The kids and I snuggled up for a movie last night and I think I was sleeping before 10am. I just hope that in the next few months I can connect with some adults to make my life a little easier while Pat is away. Pat is my best friend, the greatest husband and I am truly lost without him. But with him here I don't have a need for friends really because he is my best friend. When he's gone its so depressing and lonely and working out can only help my mood so much. Well time to get a jump start on the day I have housework calling my name along with ab ripper x n yoga x. Plus I want to try and get these kids to not be so crazy