Alone again

So Pat left early this morning and it was like my body knew. I must have woke up 4 times after he left and finally at 600 I gave up and just got up. Sleeping alone sucks:( Thankfully for now its just more training and he will be home in a few weeks. This training is really getting old though I can tell you that. I miss him so much when he's gone and the kids act like mental patients as well. I finally broke down and bought the magicjack in hope to have a home phone and lower the cell bills. $200 a month for cell phones is just way 2 much so I cut it back some and maybe once I can cancel pats data plan in a few months I can up my phone a little. I have been making cut backs all over the place in hopes to better manage the bills since they are just now taking out the money for pat training, so I am sure our pay will be screwed up until after he leaves. I have been slowly working on getting school supplies and clothes for Skyler. So far I have bought tissues and the fat pencils, a pack of undies and 1 shirt. I hate struggling like this I mean its not fair. We were good until last year when all that crap happened now its like we just cant recover. I still have so much to get for school and I still have to figure out where to get $75 for 2 daddy dolls. I managed to sell an old cell phone yesterday which gave me an extra $20 until payday. But seriously are we ever going to get ahead and not live paycheck to paycheck? I am hoping once Pat is deployed we can really get ahead and get rid of some debt. Between the lil bit of extra money from the deployment and then taxes I am hoping to put us in a better situation for 2011. I would love to pay the truck off and not have that bill every month but only time will tell what I can accomplish.