Homecoming.........

Every homecoming is a gift from God. I was blessed to have my Marine return to me May 13, 2011

Tell me something I don't know....

My husband's last call was full of info I already knew and really didn't need him to confirm. Yes I know you are a badass and will volunteer for every convoy and patrol. No you didn't have to tell me that sigh. The reality of it all has set in and this once was booze cruise has turned into a full warrior deployment. My heart is heavy and my mind full of worry. I trust my husband and his skills and know he is a Marine. However the unit he is with isn't the greatest in my opinion....

So as I wrote this the mail woman brought me a box... It was from Pat. Seriously of all days this shows me God is listening. What a thoughtful husband I have GOD i miss him.

The reason I keep going.....

Deployment.....

There's just moments of this deployment that it takes everything in me to not break down and cry. I have moments where I feel so alone it takes my breath away. The tears welt up and I have to literally swallow the lump in my throat. I am a marine wife I have been through this before and these moments pass just as quickly as they come on. It could be the snow outside to trigger the event, or a song, or a simple cooking of the dinner. Deployments never get easier, but in time it will all be over with.

Tonight was one of those nights here for me.... The silence on facebook and the current circumstances of the deployment just set in. And for a moment I have felt more alone than I ever have. Knowing that there would be no IM chat tonight or a phonecall. Nothing to look forward to and nothing to do since it is almost time for bed for the kids. So I came to finally blog. It's been a long deployment and we are half way through but the hardest part is just beginning for us. A booze cruise turned into the real deal and now the worry begins.

I have to stay strong for my Children, for my husband, but there are those moments when the pain just takes your breath away and you feel as if you can't go on. So now that I am through my moment I am off to be Strong once again, for him, for me, for my babies. Adapt and overcome. Oorah Semper Fi

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It's been a while

I have been trying to keep busy and not let life affect me too much. For the most part it was working. I was able to hear from hubs almost every day via email and he was finally going to call home. I had company come in last weekend and it was helping to make the time pass quicker. Then we went into river city and it all just fell downhill from there. I am finally back into working out full time and doing p90x plus getting on the elliptical a couple times a day. I am hoping to get back to where I was before he left soon! River city was only supposed to last a couple days but it has been 8 days so far and counting. There isn't an end in sight anytime soon and I have come to realize that. Yesterday I tried so hard to make it a decent day. I got my workout in and even found the military star cards deployment program which I think might be a big help. But when I checked our pay it's $150 less b/c they took our bas from when pat was on ship in july. So i am not quite sure how I will swing everything but I am going to try my hardest to figure it out before payday next week. It's aggravating b/c I can't talk 2 Pat to tell him and well IDK it just is lol. I am doing my best to hold it together but stupid little things keep happening. Yesterday Mia's dvd player took a shit. The girl cant sleep without Dora IDK. But I think I solved that problem by allowing her to use Skyler's and giving Skyler the ps2. Well it's still before 6am here so I think I am going to finish up my coffee get on the elliptical and get some of my workouts done for today. I also have an autumn tutu to make for a 3/8 wife. I will post pics later of it.